released August 27, 2018

everyone who doesnt know me but blacklist me from fb groups and diy venues. yes i got in a fight with my ex wife wen i was 22 and got probation which sorta lasted six years and about five i was on the run squatting pitching tents busking flying signs and dying the nightmare until i finally got caught back home in texas right outside houston right before harvey hit. crazy shit when ur cell starts flooding. anyways. if u wanna talk shit and spread gossip online read the facts. my ex didnt press charges on me, had the restraining order dismissed outright. we actually got married when i got out on probation, there was no medical report because there were no injurys and because the cops kicked in the door while we were wrestling around the floor i had my arms up under her armpits holding her back from breaking more of my shit. guitar fish tank, the list goes on. i decided to use the lifeguard technique i was taught for rescuing a distressed swimmer drowning so they dont drown u in the process after i was hit over the head with a candlestick(in retro spect this was a horrible decision in understanding now, that your better off either leaving or letting the other party leave any situation at the point of physicall confrontation). we were arguing at 6:30 in the morning cause she came home drunk from a party and i was passed out and im an angry morning person. the argument if anyone cares was about not letting her drive shitfaced drunk to the hospital when she couldnt even walk and was falling down just coming up the driveway to the front door. so whatever i restrained her against her will that makes me an abuser, in hindsight i shouldnt have tried to control her or the situation and just let her go drive drunk into a ditch on her way to the hospital(where she apparently wanted to go for breaking her ankle that she was walking on?) i guess that makes me a horrible person cause the truth was she was having an affair on me for like two years til the dude died of a heroin overdose. so sorry world. i fucked up. and i did my time. but i never even took the case to trial because i sat in the county for 90 days before they even gave me charges and another month before my arraignment so at that point after spending 4 months in jail for a bullshit fight they offered me probation and said here sign this and i could get out already. i fell for it, like 94% of the people in texas who take probation and end up in prison before they ever complete the trap that is a business model for the prison industry of texas. one of my lawyers after the fact said the whole case should have been dismissed and the judge who revoked the restraining order that my ex didnt want said i should have consulted my lawyer before signing guilty for a violent crime. especially a felony. whoops, im a dumbass impulsive adhd schizoaffective absolute fool and i wanted to get out of jail. but when ur a drug addict the system is a revolving door. ive been sober now since the thanksgiving before last when i buried my last syringe at my first campsite in bellingham. it was ceremonial and a sort of ritual. but i havent shot dope since, and i havent harassed or hit on anyone online since i was made aware of my inappropriate and creepy drug induced behavior of obnoxious uninvited lewd attempts at flirting or suggesting sexual hookups. for some reason when i get to hi i just become a slut and a whore for basically anyone. i dont do drugs anymore, ive realized it was causing a problem along multiple lines. i dont send people dick picks anymore even if they send me nudes cause apparently dick picks get around and then people start saying crazier shit about non consensual sex on heroin that takes place in a room full of people starting with my cock getting pulled outta my pants and well...lets just say i didnt say no to the initiation. also this person stole money from me thinking i was unaware and then asked for gas money because i flew a sign and made like 300 bux while i was staying with her at her apartment for like 4 days after the unconsensual sex occured a state away and she drove me to her place where we fucked and chilled and went out and had fun for another three or four days.. and truth of the matter i woulda broke off fifty or a hundred bux if the girl didnt steal a petty 30 bux from me. fuck money and fuck stealing from your friends, and fuck stabbing your friends in the back, and fuck spreading vicious rumors and lies of allegations that fuck up peoples already kinda fucked up reputation. yeah im a perv and a creep and i watch to much porn but im not a sexist or a threat towards anyone who identifies as female or anything else, and everyone who actually knows me knows that. especially all the girls who are my friends who shot me down cold and said no, like what usually happens to ugly bastards like me who end up paying for sex, whatever. i support the sex industry including when i have partners who choose to work in that or a similiar field. im forever a punk rocker at heart and i believe anarchy is inevitable and i believe in equality for all human beings gender being completely irrelevant. but we are at a point of intersectional crossroads running into one another and as a collective consciousness we must evolve past the conflicts emerging between the political spectrum created by the fucking system to divide us in the first place. were prolly a hundred or a thousand years away from rome burning and i dont think i can count that hi i shoulda paid better attention in school or something